I’m preparing to publish a book about Retirement Transition. At every step of the publication way, the voice in my head has said, “who do you think you are?” Sometimes it is in an unkind “you’re not enough” tone of voice – “who do you think you are? Others do it so much better.” Other times it’s in a “you’re just being arrogant” tone of voice; arrogance is a sin. And then there is the belief that it’s not original work, the “Who do you think you are? You’ll be shown to be a massive plagiarizer, an imposter.” Each step of the publication journey has felt like a “heart palpitating, take deep-breath, and continue on this scary path” moment.
It continues to amaze me when the universe sends you messages you need to hear. Sometimes repeatedly! Through recent reading and listening to various things on YouTube, I’m starting to create a different voice in my head:
- It’s about showing up. Not winning or losing. It’s about doing it even if you’re afraid of the reception.
- Without vulnerability, there is no creation. And this book is a creation. It is your unique take on this thing we call retirement transition.
- Yes, you will be criticized about it. That comes with doing anything that is creative. Don’t listen to people in the “cheap seats”.
- This book is not all things. It is just one woman’s take on this thing we call Retirement Transition.
Brené Brown in various books/talks gives guidance about having the courage to be imperfect, to believe in myself, the willingness to try, and to have the self-compassion to be kind to myself. It might be a complete disaster, but at least I tried.
From Janet’s blog on her reading about the Hero’s Journey: She can say, “I am not all things . . . and I am enough.” She becomes real, open, vulnerable, and receptive to a true spiritual awakening.
I keep remembering lines from a poem my best-friend in high school wrote:
“Sure I’m not perfect, nobody is. I don’t want perfection, I just want a friend. ”
I’m beginning to realize how powerful the phrase “and that’s enough” is. Not perfect, but enough.
- I’ve completed my book…. and it’s enough.
- It’s not perfect, but it is enough.
- The book is in my real voice; it’s expressing my own ideas. That is enough.
- Someone will criticize it, but someone else will find it useful. That is enough.
- The book is enough. I am enough.
Now onto the next step of the publication process!
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