This post is a set of random thoughts, none of which I’ve been able to push out into a full blog post. Perhaps it’s a reflection of the jumble my brain is in as we continue executing the Big Move!
- I’ve realized one of my life challenges – Hubby is always expecting the worst versus I am always expecting the best. (Does this mean I have a life in balance?) The latest example of this: I’m assuming a quick sale of our Ohio house (there’s little on the market and houses are selling super fast) and Hubby assumes we will have issues. OK, we have had issues before in selling. One home we put on the market to sell in late August 2001. Yes, that year’s September horror meant no showings for 4 months. And then we put our beach cottage on the market to sell in February of 2020. March of 2020? Maybe everyone should be wary this week!
- An Aha moment in my “hearing things” was when I began to realize that my inner critical voice was telling me things that were irrational! My inner voice was expressing envy of people getting vaccines and then telling me I was “less than” (incompetent) because I was not doing everything to find an appointment (others are successful, why aren’t you?). How crazy was this? (Although I am happy to say I did eventually “score” appointments for both myself and hubby… and felt like I won the lottery getting them!)
- More on Courage: the courage to accept, the courage to try:
- Brene Brown: Fitting in is when you change who are in order to be accepted by others. Belonging is when you are accepted by others because of who you are. I’ve been trying to fit in my whole life, accommodating myself to others needs, meeting or exceeding expectations, being the “good girl”, following the rules, being the responsible one, making sure i’s were dotted and t’s were crossed. I recall a few years back saying I wanted to be bad…. not bad enough to land in jail, the hospital, or divorce court, but rebel just a bit. I haven’t rebelled at all; is it time to?
- The Serenity Prayer captures 3 elements of my current development (Enneagram) and shifts things a bit from my Courage to Accept thinking: God grant me the Serenity to Accept the things I cannot change; Courage to Change the things I can. And Wisdom to know the difference. I’ve chosen Courage as my WOTY and wrote about the Courage to Accept (link here). This prayer shifts that thinking to the serenity to accept. Serenity and acceptance show up in my Enneagram development areas as well. I’ve certainly needed to focus on calming breaths as we plan and execute the Big Move!
- Albert Einstein: “A person who never made a mistake never tried anything new.” One of my big action steps is having the Courage to activate a few of the “Someday I Will” items on my to-do list. Fear of making a mistake and being seen as less than (less than perfect, looking foolish, not able to do it right) are definitely holding me back on a few of these items.
- Some affirmation from Shannon Kaiser were very inspirational, these are my variations from some of her writings:
- I let go of what I can’t change. I release my trying to control things I cannot control. Instead of trying to force things to go a certain way, I trust the universe is working on my behalf.
- I release all expectations and allow myself to be in the flow of life. I embrace the journey and let things unfold naturally. The situations I am in are part of my life plan. I release all expectations and trust things are as they should be.
- I look forward to my new beginnings. I trust the process. I am open to living my life in refreshing new ways. I am hopeful in all areas of my life.
Picture credit: me…my dogwood tree in bloom 🙂