Asking the Universe for guidance, listening for Spirit Guides, carrying crystals, understanding my chakras, reading Tarot cards. It’s not that I don’t not believe in these things. (Oh, the double negative of that sentence…terrible grammar!) I find it fascinating. So I’m continuing to explore and recently delved into a Tarot card reading and an Intuitive Reading.
“Tarot Reading is an art based on intuition, interpretation, and perception.” – Nikita Dudani
I read the Tarot Handbook by Angeles Arrien and did a seasonal Tarot reading for myself. I do believe that a personal Tarot reading can help you crystalize (no pun intended) your thoughts, since you can interpret the cards in a few different ways, allowing for your unconscious to sneak out. So what did my reading help crystalize?
- It highlighted “success” and made me question, what do I want to be successful at? The first thing that came to mind: publishing my book. Wow. This has been on my “to do” for 3 years. So maybe now is the time to put in the time and energy and do the step by step to make it a reality.
- It highlighted change is happening and being aware of my limits. This is a true statement for everyone, but lots of changes have happened in the past year for me. This aspect of the reading brought in the 4 elements in the cards, but made me think about water and emotional fluidity and body image. I’ve started to wonder if I’m hydrating enough, and I know I have some body image issues as a result of the cancer treatment.
- In the action component of this Tarot reading it indicated to trust my intuition and implement what’s in my heart. It encouraged me to let go, to not wallow in negativity, and move forward when the time was right.
As a result of the Tarot reading, I decided: I will deal with the post-cancer body changes, I will put publishing exploration on my Summer Bucket list, and I will continue to practice positivity. It also sparked an interest in getting a “real” Tarot card reading, which led me to a reading with an Intuitive Reader recommended by a friend.
This tarot-card lead Intuitive Session was mind opening. Either this Intuitive Reader really did sense the spirits, or he is an amazingly empathetic conversationalist. But the elements that showed up in the cards created a number of aha moments for me. 1) I’ve still got a lot of resentment and anger about one of my life situations. This is just holding me back. I need to release the resentment for my own sake. 2) I am not moving toward the future because hubby & I are not on the same page about what that future looks like and so I’m not allowing the future to manifest. 3) I have a deeply held fear of absolute freedom. This is a tough one to articulate, but it’s real and has come up in some other explorations of deep beliefs that are holding me back. I definitely need to explore it more.
The Intuitive Tarot session identified for me insight into deeply held emotions and beliefs that might be holding me back from living the life I’ve envisioned. Throughout the reading there was the sense of still being in transition, needing to let go of past things, putting down new roots, and creating a (creative expression) space of my own. It was intriguing to hear I was still in a major transition!
Using the Tarot cards and doing an Intuitive Reading were interesting approaches to self-reflection and I will try both again.
Have you explored Tarot and if so, what does it help you with?